Hello everyone,
Ok, bare with me. I am very nervous typing this! I gave my life to Christ yesterday! I was not able to go to church this past weekend so I listened to it online yesterday. Lately I had been questioning my salvation. And the Lord showed me yesterday that I never got saved. That I had an emotional experience. The first time I thought I gave myself to the Lord I was pregnant with
Anika and I
accpected Him because I wanted more for my child. Not because I needed a savior. He spoke very clear to me yesterday through 1 John 2:3-6.
"And how can we be sure that we belong to Him? By obeying his commandments. If someone says,"I belong to God," but doesn't obey God's commandments, that person is a liar and does not live in the truth. But those who obey God's word really do love him. That is the way to know whether or not we live in Him. Those who say they live in God should live their lives as Christ did."
He showed me I never changed. I never truly got saved. Yes my language got better. I am not going to the same places I use to go. But my selfishness was still there and my anger was still there. I would try to change but I would go back to my same ways. I had no fruit! I did not have the holy spirit dwelling inside me. Yes I felt bad about my sin but never turned from it. I had no desire to get into His' word or learn more about Him.
Yesterday I was delivered!! Truly delivered. I finally realized I needed a Savior. Praise God that He continued to knock on my heart. Today I woke up and I know I was a new creation! The old is gone, truly gone and the new is come. I got up and got into the word and I could not get enough if it!!
I have an attitude of thankfulness! I am more patient with my girls. I am disciplining them out of Love. I am explaining to them what they did wrong and telling them what God's word says about what they did wrong. I want my husband to hurry and come home so I can spend time with him alone. I want to praise him for working so hard to allow me to stay home.
I can't wait to see what the Lord is going to do through my life now that I am His!!
Thank you for not judging me! I love that I am in a body of believers that they are so
excited that I finally know our Savior!!
Thank you! Thank you!
I can truly sing this with all my heart!!
Found in YOU:
You are my security
And all of my identity
Lord you are my everything
I'm found in You
You have taken all control
By Your blood You've made me whole
Shepherd of my heart and soul
I'm found in You
I have all that I need
For you have laid me in pastures of peace
Now I know and believe
this is true
Jesus I am found in You
Lord You found me
When my heart was filled with doubt
Your blood paid for me
and now I am secure forever
Everything is gone away
only You remain
Finally my soul is free
Finally I am safe
