Who Am I?

I have been asking myself that lately.

I feel like I have lost myself.

I have lost the things I love to do.

It is hard to explain but I will try.

Here lately I have been feeling I am living I life I did not want to live.

You are probably thinking WHAT?

Don't get me wrong I love being a mom to my girls and a wife to Justin.

I just feel like I am not how I was.

Yes I am a new creation in Christ. But I have lost my passions in life.

Most of you did not know me in high school.

My passions in life were:

Dancing
Singing
photography
scrapbooking

sewing

painting

I have lost the things I love.

I was talking to Justin the other day about this and he said," Ana, you are a mom now."

Then I ask,"Why does it have to change because I am a mom?"

My girls love dancing with me in the living room! My girls love taking pictures! And my girls love to sing!

I just want my life to overflow with my passions that I have. That God put in me. But i can not seem to find a way for this to happen. Please join with me in prayer that God would put things in my life that I can express myself and for time and resources to do these things.

If I do not make sense to you please talk to me in person so I can explain more. I have a hard time typing what I am feeling. I do better explaining in person.

I love taking PICTURES!

The camera of my dreams!!

I am sad to say I do not have a camera anymore. My brothers were letting me use their rebel but they needed it back and then gave it to a friend of theirs. And my small digital camera is broken!! I do not know what happened.

I am so sad.

Anika was in Kidshine is past weekend and I was not able to take pictures of her. And in about two weeks we are going to Oklahoma for the labor day festival and I wanted to take pictures then too. So I think I will just have to buy me a disposable camera. I really do not want to do that because I have been spoiled with my brother's Rebel. The pictures are so clean and smooth.


I hope I can get one soon. Justin said when we can afford it he will buy me the camera of my dreams!!

A few pictures I took with the Rebel:

I really love taking pictures. I hope I can start again soon.